Tuesday, May 26, 2015

I'm Proud to Announce...

It’s a common trend in the midst of big changes and moments in our lives to update our friends via Facebook about what we’re up to - where we're moving, what our new position is, etc. Of course there is nothing wrong with this. I’ve done it many of times and will in the future. But there’s more I want to share with you than just a brief post-collegiate career update. So if you’re one of the few that actually cared enough to click on this link and read this post, I’m sure I would consider you one of my good friends, part of my family, or just a curious, potential friend. So before I get to the good news/I'm proud to announce moment, I have a story..

I was ten years old.  I had seen very little of what the world had to offer.  Yet I knew that I would be hard pressed to match the bright eyed sense of wonder & stomach in my throat feeling I was experiencing while winding through the Rockies on I-70.

It was the first of many ski trips to Colorado for me and my family.  We were accompanying some family friends who were seasoned vets on the slopes.  They hooked us up with the mountain cabin, hot tub patio and everything.  I was in heaven. I didn’t know this way of life even existed. The humbling massiveness of the mountains covered in thick trees and capped with powder literally took my breath away and still does to this day. Just like everything else in life, only first hand experience will do it justice.

Everyone was planning on skiing…except me. I was about to be buck the trend and be the only snowboarder out of 10+ people. Snowboarding was spiking in popularity during this time in the early 2000’s. I had been a dedicated (obsessed) viewer of the winter and summer X Games and had plenty of experience whizzing down the local Skyview sledding hill with my Wal-Mart 3000 equipped with the highest quality dual strap slide-in bindings.  I even built a drop-in runway with a ramp in our yard every winter so I could practice everyday after school. But this was the big time. I was not being persuaded from snowboarding by my Mom, who was slightly concerned about her overconfident and anxious son.

My little brother Jordan catching a whole 10 inches of air off of our state-of-the-art drop-in runway ramp


The anticipation was like Christmas Eve for a Santa crazed child x 1000.  Not only was I unable to sleep, I could barely close my eyes.  Tossing and turning all night, I finally sprung out of bed at 5:30 AM and started getting my gear on.  After eating some cereal and sweating profusely for a couple hours, everyone slowly started to wake up. I was begging them to hurry up so we could be first in line at the lift (lifts open at 9:00 AM). They laughed at how ridiculously ecstatic I was about the whole thing.

We’re in line to get on the lift… my mom, dad, and sister get on a chair together.  I am instantly separated from my group.  No worries, I’ll just hop on the next one coming up… I’m by myself. My mom is looking back nervously. She is yelling at me but I can’t hear what she’s saying. I’m fine though, no need to worry, Mom. Until we start to go over some pretty steep, high sections and the lift periodically stops and swings due to newbies trying to get off at the end of the lift and falling. I didn’t know there was a safety bar to pull down so I’m hanging on for dear life. Finally I get to the summit, just hoping I don’t make a fool of myself trying to get off. I forgot to mention I also didn’t know snowboarders are supposed to keep their back foot unstrapped to maneuver on and off the lifts. This is what I get for being the only snowboarder in the group.  I faceplant and they have to stop the lift like they did for all the other first-timers and my family is laughing their ass off while I peel myself off the ground. I shake it off. I’m ready to show em what I’m made of now.

I ended up doing alright. I didn’t fall often, but when I did, I fell hard. By the end of the day I was keeping up with the best of them. I don’t remember feeling that intensity of joy for such a sustained amount of time. Like most first time experiences, nothing will ever match the rush of those first few sessions carving down the mountain.  Eventually I got the courage to try out the terrain park and finally caught some real air hang time which quite literally felt like achieving flight. It honestly seemed like I was never going to come down. I had opened up a whole new realm to the experience.




For those of you wondering... yes those are both actually me but I have been questioned/doubted numerous times. Props to the camera man.  It's not near as high or impressive as it looks.

We would continue to go on ski trips over the years and my dream of living in Colorado only continued to grow and fester in my head.  I refused to accept any reality other than that of being surrounded by mountains and trees everyday.  Once a year wasn’t good enough.  Twice or three times a year wasn’t either.  I was too in love to not make it part of my everyday life. The peace, the serenity, the beauty. Sooo cliche, but like most cliches, so true.

My Colorado virginity story is significant to me because it sparked something that I cannot and will not be able to put out. After all these years I have finally seen the aforementioned dream come to fruition and will soon become reality. I will be leaving my beloved home state of Nebraska and call Colorado home come June. For me to be able to write those words means more than you know. I was prepared to move to Colorado on a shoe string budget working at a fucking gas station if I had to. It’s something so much more than just snowboarding or mountain biking, hiking, jeeping or any of that. While those are most definitely huge factors, it’s the diverse people, active culture, progressive society, nature…. the concerts, restaurants, opportunities, venues, trails, the good vibes I feel from just being there. It's hard to explain but I literally feel more at ease and in sync during my time spent in Colorado.

Now I’m not saying Colorado is the only place for me. There are mountains and trees in other places and much more to see in this world, but not this close to home. I will always call Nebraska my home.  It has served me well in my developing years and made me chase my dreams with even more intensity I think this way. After just graduating from UNK with a bachelor’s degree in Construction Management, I will be working for Kiewit Building Group as a Construction Engineer in Colorado Springs for the next stretch of my life and then who knows?..  But for now I will be calling the Centennial state my newest second home.

Hanging Lake - Glenwood Canyon, CO

Winter Park, CO


Denver, CO

Trestle Bike Park - Winter Park, CO


Monday, May 11, 2015

Closing thoughts to an unforgettable college experience

I haven't yet fully processed the fact that my time here as a UNK student athlete has come to a close. I finished my last final on Wednesday and immediately left to Chicago to hopefully run a last chance national qualifying time in the steeplechase again this year. I knew I would be missing my own graduation ceremony in order to do this. While my fellow graduates were to be walking across the stage to receive that "expensive piece of paper" I would be going on a shakeloose run to prepare for my race later that night.

The thought of missing commencement to race again in a Loper jersey was an extremely simple and easy decision. I couldn't even imagine foregoing the opportunity to toe the line one more time to punch a ticket to the big dance. Turns out I came up short this time. However...I can say without a doubt that I have no regrets, reservations, or second thoughts on any decisions I have made throughout my collegiate career. I am where I am because of each one of my complex choices and various paths I have ventured down.

It's not the trips to nationals, medals, trophies, GPA, or diploma that I will cling to following this college experience. What I WILL hold close to my heart are the relationships I have built with a number of people that is far too many to be individually recognized. A particularly fond memory/feeling I will always hold dearly is that of the relationship I have with my UNK XC/Track team and our coach. Coach Bonsall has sent our team this video a few times... reminding us of what's important, namely, the journey of getting better, together. I will always get goosebumps thinking about this while never forgetting the lessons I have learned through the countless hours of studying, practicing, traveling, racing, winning, losing, and bonding with you people. You know who you are.

Much love.




Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Hello again, friends

When I started this blog on a whim halfway through my sophomore year in college I had no expectations.  My first post I literally included the link and a caption saying “I started a blog…. read it.  Or don’t."  I didn’t care what people thought about it.  I did it because I felt inspired from a couple of courses I was taking in philosophy and political science among various other enlightening experiences that had sparked something in me.  I was curious as to how these thoughts would translate into words and had a lot of fun doing it.  I received a lot of positive responses and loved writing, but for some reason I just stopped. Whether it was because of a growing fear of judgement, my busy schedule, or probably a combination of the two. I started thinking too much about writing something that people would “like.”  I mean actually like and Facebook like.  This was the opposite of what I wanted to achieve with my writing, so I simply stopped.

I feel like I finally have the motivation again mainly thanks to a major transition happening in my life. There’s a few times in life when reflection seems inevitable and graduating college definitely seems like one of them.  So I started writing again.  I started two notebooks.  One is my journal, and the other is filled with posts to publish on this blog.  The truth is, some thoughts are simply too personal/intimate, which are things that most people don’t want/need/deserve to know.

I find it surprisingly relaxing and therapeutic to just to sit down after a meaningful experience and walk through it, revisiting pivotal moments to promote clarity.  It's an emotional release, a thought provoker, an organizer.  I want to fully process and solidify valuable lessons while feeling gratitude by writing about them...whether I share them with the world or not.


"Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people, citizens of distant epochs, who never knew one another.  Books break the shackles of time, proof that humans can work magic."

-Carl Sagan

"My philosophy is: It's none of my business what people say of me and think of me. I am what I am and I do what I do. I expect nothing and accept everything. And it makes life so much easier."

-Sir Anthony Hopkins.


I have a few pieces I’ve been working on and will post them over the next couple of weeks!

I got nothing but love for y’all.

Cheers